One question.

Why is it soo damn hard to go up to a women and talk to her. Why is it that i really want to and say oh whats the worst that can happen, but yet when i try, i am unable to?

Last Night

So, last night was a halloween party at a co-workers house where there was all the jungle juice u could drink. I showed up and wasn't in costume, i was the first "party foul". Oh well, so i take my first jello shot and start drinking the jungle juice, now this is my first time drinking everclear so i was curious on how i would react to it. Well there wasnt much time before me and my empty stomach were starting to feel really well. When i first got there i was rather uncomfortable because i really only knew darring and his girlfriend. Tho i still had a fun time, we played some tippy cup and then the crazy in me took over. I decided it would be fun to body surf the stairwell and then do my best tuck and roll impression. I really wish i could get the video off my phone and on here to show you the example. It was a fun time. Then another co-worker showed up and thats when all hell broke loose. More shots, more drinks, more tippy cup!! At about this point is where things go a lil fuzzy, i do remember some rock band II in there and then we all went back upstairs and then the whole party drama. Something happend somewhere but i was too drunk to care so i partied on. About 1:30 i got a message from my sisters bf saying he wasnt able to get into my garage to get a few things he needed. So i left the party to go meet him and help him. Bad thing is i got there at about 2:00. So needless to say he was gone, it was probably best that i left when i did cause now i sit at work, HANG OVER FREE!!!, looking back and remembering the craziness of it all and look forward to the next one. That pretty well sum's up my evening and the greatness of the night, so...untill next time...

Ass hats!

Why do some people feel that it is perfectly fine to be nice to you when you give them soo much whilst they live with you but as soon as they move out BAM they become total ass hats! So I got my 24 hr disco on my electric cause he wont help pay like he said he would and i needed to come up with $170 by 11:00 am this morning. So its up in the blue if i will go home to a house warm and with power. If i dont i will pack what i can whilst using my lantern and if i do, well i will still pack. Nice thing about modern times is i can use a generator to get the power to vaccuum and use that. So PISS ON HIM when it comes to trying to screw me over, I will find my own way to get around things. :D well im off work now, gonna go pack and then get LIT UP at a holloween party so work should be interesting tomorrow! untill next time...

um.... right.....about that....

So as all of you that dont read this know, i m moving in with my parents, at times i totally think to myself this is gonna suck so bad, at other times i think, well this may not be so bad... Last night after i got off work i went out there to clean out my new bedroom. WOW was i surprised that i actually had help and that my sister went out there last weekend to help out also. thought she would be totally pissed off about this but i was wrong. she actually thinks this will help me and has seen me struggling more then i realise... So now i m thinking wow this wont be so bad at all, my whole family is trying to help me. So now the next step is to get all my shit finished packed, sorted thru, thrown away and my apartment cleaned so i can get as much of my security deposit back as possible. this will be the first one i have ever gotten back if i get anything. i hate how apartment complexes come up with excuses saying oh we did this or oh we did that and it cost your whole deposit. pisses ya off is what it does, especially when you know that it didnt need done in the first place. anywho, i explained to my mom, im used to being able to play xbox live, play on my computer, do this and this, and asked if i could put one thing on her laptop, she agreed so i m happy that i have one thing i can do still at there resdidence, bad thing is i will be getting sattelite internet since they arnt able to get cable or anything else so the one game iwill be playing is going to suck nuts tryin to play it. i will get used to it tho. well im bored and nothing else to spew about so...untill next time...

UGH!

Why does it seem everytime i start to get me feet on the ground i get knocked on my ass once again... im supposed to be moving in with my parents this week so my last paycheck im planning on getting a storage unit and getting a few things done so i can get moved in and start saving money. NOPE i get kicked in the groin and im stuck where im living till the end of the month where with that paycheck i will have to fork out another big chunk of money to my landlord...GAH i just want to move and get the hell out of there the only thing keeping me is no place to store my furniture and belongings....Why is karma kicking me in the ass right now? what have i done...

DUMBASS MOVE ON YOUR PART!

So i really didnt want to do this but i think its soo funny and classic like something you would see in a movie type thing so here is my conversation with my ex roomate. things started on sat when i had my best friend, who now lives in vegas, show up to hang out, well roomate was fully moved out so i decided to move my couch and two chairs upstairs becuase we would be drinking and that way we would be closer to the beer and b-room. all is well right :D i get an email on 10/14 from the ex-roomate stating: Normally in a situation like this i would be bitchy and say WHAT THE FUK IS GOING ON. BUT in not going to. Mainly because i forsaw this happening. i wasnt completely positive you were going to screw me over till you asked for your dishes the other night. Then came you ignoring me ect. Well im not pissed. maybe its for the best. I think we were better friends when we didnt live together. I know you planned this. Not like all of a sudden the night before you can just come up with 2 people to live with you. But hey Im glad you found someone at least. Like i said before im not mad pissed ect. Gotta find anotehr roomie for a lil bit but thats ok. We will manage. If you still wanna be friends mail or text me some time. If not then dont lol. TTUL BUD well if you choose. now for the funny part here are the texts as follows:
Me: Just got your email what is that supposed to mean?
Him: What u think?
Me: well i dont have anyone moving in with me ive been packing so you have assume things
Him: Not wat we was told.
Me: who you getting your information thru cause i dont know what the hell your talking about
Him: Ur neighbors said u had 2 guys movn in sat night.
Me: Ha thats funny i moved my couch and two chairs upstairs so i guess that means i have a new roomate who visits occasionally from las vegas where he is in the air force and just got back from iraq
Him: Oh. evalyn said u had ppl movn in.
Me: nope but i guess i m now moving in with my parents
Him: Sorry. We askd stinky 2 move in till jan cuz we was told u had roomies
Me: well your loss next time ask me instead of getting false information from someone who has no clue what the hell they are talking about
Him: Yeah def my loss. Wuld rathr it b u. sorry man. makes me feel like an ass now.
Me: that and im not too happy either
Him: Dnt blame u. Im so snrry dude.

This is all word for word no lies i will show you the proof!! :D moral of the story: Dont assume what someone tells u is what really is going on. go to the person and face to face ask them. I dont know where i will go from here with the ex-roomate. We were really good friends, even living together we got along, it was his g/f that would cause our issues. I guess i should not be mad at him since i didnt want to tell him i was actually moving in with my parents over him to save money and to pay off my debts. So in the long run it did work out on my half but im in a pickle, since it wont hurt him not to know i was really moving in with my parents and not him do i ethically tell him or leave it to myself? Either way i still wanna be friends so i think i might just keep that to myself and let him be the dumbass for once since they pretty well screwed me in the long run. Well thats it for now, untill next time....

Moving

So i am moving here in the next few days. I am supposed to be moving in with my current roomate of whom i get along with great. the bad thing is his good for nothing worthless g/f, fiance, ugly bumping friend, or whatever they call there off again on again relationship. She gets pissy for no damn reason, bitches at him then he relays the message on to me. Well our internet got turned off, i dont have all the money in the world right now so that bill was not as important to me to pay cause its not a necessity, yes i m gonna go insane without my online gaming but i will get over it. Well the main issue at hand here is that i get a text message from the ass hat saying you have no idea how BOREING it is with no f*k*ng internet or cable. exact words but no censor (for the young readers). so i respond well u cant complain because you havnt ever payed for any of this bill. he comes back well ive offered blah blah blah bitch bitch moan moan, i laughed him off no big deal. What im coming to realise is that i let him and the bitch move into my duplex with there son knowing they did not have a lot of money and cut them a break. Well they ended up buying a house thru the usda and are moving out this weekend. At first they were like its gonna be just us all is good i start looking for my own place. i find its hard as shit to get the money saved up for a security deposit and first months rent because i m paying out my ass already. so i ask and they agree to let me move in with them to get the money saved up. as it gets closer and closer to move day i keep asking myself do i really want to keep putting up with this? So i called my mom on a whim last night saying i needed to speak with her and my dad about moving back home to get bills paid and money saved and vehicles fixed. she said thats fine so now i wait and keep thinking man do i really want to do this. I mean i dont want to put up with an ass hat of a roomate and the bitch but i dont want to not have a personal life... and since they live in the country that means no highspeed internet for my gaming, ima have withdrawals. so i need some advice i wanna save the money but i wanna have a personal life. what should i do? feel free to speak to me in person or leave a message on here saying HEY DUMBASS DONT BE SO R TARDED AND DO THIS!!! my mind is all over the place right now so i do apologize to those of you i snap at, its nothing personal so please dont take it like it is.....so..untill next time...