Friday, November 28, 2008

Songs, sorry i be bored

Shadow of the Day
Linkin Park
I close both locks below the window.
I close both blinds and turn away.
Sometimes solutions aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.
And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.
Pink cards and flowers on your window,
Your friends all plead for you to stay.
Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.
And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.
Hands Held High
Linkin Park
Turn my mic up louder,
I got to say something.
Lightweights stepping aside,
When we come in.
Feel it in your chest,
The syllables get pumping.
People on the street,
They panic and start running.
Words on loose leaf,
Sheet complete coming.
I jump on my mind,
I summon the rhyme I'm dumping.
Feeling the blind,
I promise to let the sun in.
Sick of the dark ways,
We march to the drumming.
Jump when they tell us
They want to see jumping.
Fuck that, I want to
See some fist pumping.
Risk something.
Take back what's yours
Say something that you know
They might attack you for
Cause I'm sick of being treated
Like I had before.
Like it's stupid standing for
What I'm standing for.
Like this war is really just
A different brand of war.
Like it doesn't cater the rich
And an abandon the poor.
Like they understand you
In the back of the jet,
When you can't put gas in your tank.T
hese fuckers are laughing their way
To the bank and cashing their cheque
Asking you to have compassion and to have some respect.
For a leader so nervous
In an obvious way
Stuttering and mumbling
For nightly news to replay
And the rest of the world
Watching at the end of the day
In the living room laughing
Like what did he say?
Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen
In my living room watching,
But I am not laughing.
Cause when it gets tense,
I know what might happen.
The world is cold,
The bold men take action.
Have to react,
Or get blown into fractions.
10 years old is something to see,
Another kid my age drugged under a jeep,
Taken and bound and found later under a tree,
I wonder if he thought the "next one could be me".
Do you see?
The soldiers they're out today.
That brush the dust from bulletproof vests away.
It's ironic,
At times like this you pray,
But a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday.
There's bombs in the buses, bikes, roads,
Inside your markets, your shops, your clothes,
My dad, he's got a lot of fear I know
But enough pride inside not to let that show.
My brother had a book he would hold with pride
A little red cover with a broken spine.
In the back he hand wrote a quote inside,
When the rich wage war, it's the poor who die.
Meanwhile, the leader just talks away
Stuttering and mumbling
For nightly news to replay
And the rest of the world
Watching at the end of the day
Both scared and angry
Like what did he say?
Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen.
With Hands Held High
Into a sky so blue
The ocean opens up
To swallow you.
With Hands Held High
Into a sky so blue
The ocean opens up
To swallow you.
With Hands Held High
Into a sky so blue
The ocean opens up
To swallow you.
With Hands Held High
Into a sky so blue
The ocean opens up
To swallow you.
With Hands Held High
Into a sky so blue
The ocean opens up
To swallow you.
With Hands Held High
Into a sky so blue
The ocean opens up
To swallow you.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Growing up?

Linkin Park
In The End lyrics

It starts with
One thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mindI designed this rhyme to explain in due time
All I know

Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal

Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Tried to hold on, but didn't even know
I wasted it all just towatch you go

I kept everything inside
And even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me
Will eventually be
A memory
Of a time

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter.

I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter.

One thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mindI designed this rhyme to remind myself how I
Tried so hard

In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised
It got so far

Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside
And even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know

I put my trust in you!
Pushed as far as I can go!
For all this!
There's only one thing you should know!

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter.

Well I was listening to this song on my way to work pondering life when it hit me like a brick to the nuts! This song pretty well sums up my last relationship. Dont know why it made me think of it but it did. Last night I was also speaking with another friend about roomates when I realised something. My first roomate was a very good friend of mine and some things happend and he ended up moving out and we havn't talked since. I could never figure out why he moved out and didn't tell me he was moving or didn't tell me what I did. It took me about a year to realise this. It was last night when I was talking to a friend about her best friend and her moving in together. I advised to be careful cause it hardly ever works out. Then it got me thinking of what happend with us and this also hit me like a cue stick to the face. So now I ask myself do I try to make amends or do I just let him know I now realise what I did and apologize and let it be that and see what he does? Im going more for the second one that way I know I did the right thing. I don't know whats causing this to come to me all of the sudden, maybe im maturing more then I realise, either way I am glad I realised what I did and can now let him know and apologize. Well thats about all thats coming out for now so.. untill next time...

Saturday, November 8, 2008

WELCOME!

Everyone welcome jake aka birdy, he is a lil on the messed up side. This is due to lack of sleep and him being a complete udder DUMBASS. So upon that being said, sit back, relax, laugh, scratch your head (or ass) and be bewildered at his totally off the wall antics! sry lil birdy i had to!

Friday, November 7, 2008

What to say.

Well when i first got this blog going i really thought it would have a lot of ranting in it and other things. But it seems my life is beginning to be what i m wanting it to be. Truly stress free and im starting to like this a lot. Now that i am moved in with my parents and able to pay bills money is becoming easier to keep, not all of it is going out at once makine me broke off my ass. And i am actually starting to meet people i can talk to and go out with. Not that i couldnt before but it seems more and more everyday! Finally starting to hang with friends from work, which is fun, and actually having the confidence to talk to women. We will see how that goes tonight! Updates tomorrow i hope, unless its just so tragic that i dont want to write about it. But i dont see that happening. well thats about all my fired up mind wants to put out for now so.. untill next time....

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

What a night.

So last night at league i had one hell of a night. Not only did i bowl a couple good games, i had a good time with a co worker afterwards throwing a few more games. Some other events happend that i just cant get off my mind and im loving it. I didnt hardly sleep a wink last night. I didnt think i would have the balls to pull off what i did, but it renewed my confidence ten fold. So as of this day soo far.. Its flying by faster then no other. Looks like im going back to the alley tonight to "practice" some more :D.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Blogs

So i m realising there is one thing bad about blogging. Yes its supposed to be used for whatever, i use it to put me feelings out there, kinda like a stress reliever. But i have a topic that i want to type out but know there will be repricussions and dont know what they will be. So i guess for now this will be stuck in my head till i get a few things straightened out. So i guess... untill next time...