OMG people CMON REALLY!

First of all, why the hell is it when snow falls people turn into the biggest IDIOTS! OOH its snowing so i am going to drive 35 mph and not let anyone pass me and then when u do pass me im going to flash my brights and act like its a big deal! Well im sorry sir/ma'am that i have driven in this for only seven short years but i know how to drive because IT HAPPENS EVERY GOD DAMN YEAR!!! Secondly, why is it when people call in for help, and they dont know where the equipment is in THEIR HOUSE they automatically deduce that magically we know?? Here ma'am let me get my phone goggles out and hooked up so i can look thru the phone line and tell you where everything is intalled in your house so you can be lazy on your couch and not do a DAMN THING. Honestly CMON people its not that hard. In this modern day and time you should know what the hell your mdm is. Well i feel better...so untill next time...

Songs, sorry i be bored

Shadow of the Day

Linkin Park

I close both locks below the window.

I close both blinds and turn away.

Sometimes solutions aren't so simple.

Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

And the sun will set for you,

The sun will set for you.

And the shadow of the day,

Will embrace the world in grey,

And the sun will set for you.

Pink cards and flowers on your window,

Your friends all plead for you to stay.

Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple.

Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

And the sun will set for you,

The sun will set for you.

And the shadow of the day,

Will embrace the world in grey,

And the sun will set for you.

And the shadow of the day,

Will embrace the world in grey,

And the sun will set for you.

And the shadow of the day,

Will embrace the world in grey,

And the sun will set for you.

Hands Held High

Linkin Park

Turn my mic up louder,

I got to say something.

Lightweights stepping aside,

When we come in.

Feel it in your chest,

The syllables get pumping.

People on the street,

They panic and start running.

Words on loose leaf,

Sheet complete coming.

I jump on my mind,

I summon the rhyme I'm dumping.

Feeling the blind,

I promise to let the sun in.

Sick of the dark ways,

We march to the drumming.

Jump when they tell us

They want to see jumping.

Fuck that, I want to

See some fist pumping.

Risk something.

Take back what's yours

Say something that you know

They might attack you for

Cause I'm sick of being treated

Like I had before.

Like it's stupid standing for

What I'm standing for.

Like this war is really just

A different brand of war.

Like it doesn't cater the rich

And an abandon the poor.

Like they understand you

In the back of the jet,

When you can't put gas in your tank.T

hese fuckers are laughing their way

To the bank and cashing their cheque

Asking you to have compassion and to have some respect.

For a leader so nervous

In an obvious way

Stuttering and mumbling

For nightly news to replay

And the rest of the world

Watching at the end of the day

In the living room laughing

Like what did he say?

Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen

In my living room watching,

But I am not laughing.

Cause when it gets tense,

I know what might happen.

The world is cold,

The bold men take action.

Have to react,

Or get blown into fractions.

10 years old is something to see,

Another kid my age drugged under a jeep,

Taken and bound and found later under a tree,

I wonder if he thought the "next one could be me".

Do you see?

The soldiers they're out today.

That brush the dust from bulletproof vests away.

It's ironic,

At times like this you pray,

But a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday.

There's bombs in the buses, bikes, roads,

Inside your markets, your shops, your clothes,

My dad, he's got a lot of fear I know

But enough pride inside not to let that show.

My brother had a book he would hold with pride

A little red cover with a broken spine.

In the back he hand wrote a quote inside,

When the rich wage war, it's the poor who die.

Meanwhile, the leader just talks away

Stuttering and mumbling

For nightly news to replay

And the rest of the world

Watching at the end of the day

Both scared and angry

Like what did he say?

Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen.

With Hands Held High

Into a sky so blue

The ocean opens up

To swallow you.

With Hands Held High

Into a sky so blue

The ocean opens up

To swallow you.

With Hands Held High

Into a sky so blue

The ocean opens up

To swallow you.

With Hands Held High

Into a sky so blue

The ocean opens up

To swallow you.

With Hands Held High

Into a sky so blue

The ocean opens up

To swallow you.

With Hands Held High

Into a sky so blue

The ocean opens up

To swallow you.

er..

Growing up?

Linkin Park
In The End lyrics

It starts with
One thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mindI designed this rhyme to explain in due time
All I know

Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal

Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Tried to hold on, but didn't even know
I wasted it all just towatch you go

I kept everything inside
And even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me
Will eventually be
A memory
Of a time

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter.

I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter.

One thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mindI designed this rhyme to remind myself how I
Tried so hard

In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised
It got so far

Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside
And even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know

I put my trust in you!
Pushed as far as I can go!
For all this!
There's only one thing you should know!

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter.

Well I was listening to this song on my way to work pondering life when it hit me like a brick to the nuts! This song pretty well sums up my last relationship. Dont know why it made me think of it but it did. Last night I was also speaking with another friend about roomates when I realised something. My first roomate was a very good friend of mine and some things happend and he ended up moving out and we havn't talked since. I could never figure out why he moved out and didn't tell me he was moving or didn't tell me what I did. It took me about a year to realise this. It was last night when I was talking to a friend about her best friend and her moving in together. I advised to be careful cause it hardly ever works out. Then it got me thinking of what happend with us and this also hit me like a cue stick to the face. So now I ask myself do I try to make amends or do I just let him know I now realise what I did and apologize and let it be that and see what he does? Im going more for the second one that way I know I did the right thing. I don't know whats causing this to come to me all of the sudden, maybe im maturing more then I realise, either way I am glad I realised what I did and can now let him know and apologize. Well thats about all thats coming out for now so.. untill next time...

WELCOME!

Everyone welcome jake aka birdy, he is a lil on the messed up side. This is due to lack of sleep and him being a complete udder DUMBASS. So upon that being said, sit back, relax, laugh, scratch your head (or ass) and be bewildered at his totally off the wall antics! sry lil birdy i had to!

What to say.

Well when i first got this blog going i really thought it would have a lot of ranting in it and other things. But it seems my life is beginning to be what i m wanting it to be. Truly stress free and im starting to like this a lot. Now that i am moved in with my parents and able to pay bills money is becoming easier to keep, not all of it is going out at once makine me broke off my ass. And i am actually starting to meet people i can talk to and go out with. Not that i couldnt before but it seems more and more everyday! Finally starting to hang with friends from work, which is fun, and actually having the confidence to talk to women. We will see how that goes tonight! Updates tomorrow i hope, unless its just so tragic that i dont want to write about it. But i dont see that happening. well thats about all my fired up mind wants to put out for now so.. untill next time....

What a night.

So last night at league i had one hell of a night. Not only did i bowl a couple good games, i had a good time with a co worker afterwards throwing a few more games. Some other events happend that i just cant get off my mind and im loving it. I didnt hardly sleep a wink last night. I didnt think i would have the balls to pull off what i did, but it renewed my confidence ten fold. So as of this day soo far.. Its flying by faster then no other. Looks like im going back to the alley tonight to "practice" some more :D.

Blogs

So i m realising there is one thing bad about blogging. Yes its supposed to be used for whatever, i use it to put me feelings out there, kinda like a stress reliever. But i have a topic that i want to type out but know there will be repricussions and dont know what they will be. So i guess for now this will be stuck in my head till i get a few things straightened out. So i guess... untill next time...

One question.

Why is it soo damn hard to go up to a women and talk to her. Why is it that i really want to and say oh whats the worst that can happen, but yet when i try, i am unable to?

Last Night

So, last night was a halloween party at a co-workers house where there was all the jungle juice u could drink. I showed up and wasn't in costume, i was the first "party foul". Oh well, so i take my first jello shot and start drinking the jungle juice, now this is my first time drinking everclear so i was curious on how i would react to it. Well there wasnt much time before me and my empty stomach were starting to feel really well. When i first got there i was rather uncomfortable because i really only knew darring and his girlfriend. Tho i still had a fun time, we played some tippy cup and then the crazy in me took over. I decided it would be fun to body surf the stairwell and then do my best tuck and roll impression. I really wish i could get the video off my phone and on here to show you the example. It was a fun time. Then another co-worker showed up and thats when all hell broke loose. More shots, more drinks, more tippy cup!! At about this point is where things go a lil fuzzy, i do remember some rock band II in there and then we all went back upstairs and then the whole party drama. Something happend somewhere but i was too drunk to care so i partied on. About 1:30 i got a message from my sisters bf saying he wasnt able to get into my garage to get a few things he needed. So i left the party to go meet him and help him. Bad thing is i got there at about 2:00. So needless to say he was gone, it was probably best that i left when i did cause now i sit at work, HANG OVER FREE!!!, looking back and remembering the craziness of it all and look forward to the next one. That pretty well sum's up my evening and the greatness of the night, so...untill next time...

Ass hats!

Why do some people feel that it is perfectly fine to be nice to you when you give them soo much whilst they live with you but as soon as they move out BAM they become total ass hats! So I got my 24 hr disco on my electric cause he wont help pay like he said he would and i needed to come up with $170 by 11:00 am this morning. So its up in the blue if i will go home to a house warm and with power. If i dont i will pack what i can whilst using my lantern and if i do, well i will still pack. Nice thing about modern times is i can use a generator to get the power to vaccuum and use that. So PISS ON HIM when it comes to trying to screw me over, I will find my own way to get around things. :D well im off work now, gonna go pack and then get LIT UP at a holloween party so work should be interesting tomorrow! untill next time...

um.... right.....about that....

So as all of you that dont read this know, i m moving in with my parents, at times i totally think to myself this is gonna suck so bad, at other times i think, well this may not be so bad... Last night after i got off work i went out there to clean out my new bedroom. WOW was i surprised that i actually had help and that my sister went out there last weekend to help out also. thought she would be totally pissed off about this but i was wrong. she actually thinks this will help me and has seen me struggling more then i realise... So now i m thinking wow this wont be so bad at all, my whole family is trying to help me. So now the next step is to get all my shit finished packed, sorted thru, thrown away and my apartment cleaned so i can get as much of my security deposit back as possible. this will be the first one i have ever gotten back if i get anything. i hate how apartment complexes come up with excuses saying oh we did this or oh we did that and it cost your whole deposit. pisses ya off is what it does, especially when you know that it didnt need done in the first place. anywho, i explained to my mom, im used to being able to play xbox live, play on my computer, do this and this, and asked if i could put one thing on her laptop, she agreed so i m happy that i have one thing i can do still at there resdidence, bad thing is i will be getting sattelite internet since they arnt able to get cable or anything else so the one game iwill be playing is going to suck nuts tryin to play it. i will get used to it tho. well im bored and nothing else to spew about so...untill next time...

UGH!

Why does it seem everytime i start to get me feet on the ground i get knocked on my ass once again... im supposed to be moving in with my parents this week so my last paycheck im planning on getting a storage unit and getting a few things done so i can get moved in and start saving money. NOPE i get kicked in the groin and im stuck where im living till the end of the month where with that paycheck i will have to fork out another big chunk of money to my landlord...GAH i just want to move and get the hell out of there the only thing keeping me is no place to store my furniture and belongings....Why is karma kicking me in the ass right now? what have i done...

DUMBASS MOVE ON YOUR PART!

So i really didnt want to do this but i think its soo funny and classic like something you would see in a movie type thing so here is my conversation with my ex roomate. things started on sat when i had my best friend, who now lives in vegas, show up to hang out, well roomate was fully moved out so i decided to move my couch and two chairs upstairs becuase we would be drinking and that way we would be closer to the beer and b-room. all is well right :D i get an email on 10/14 from the ex-roomate stating: Normally in a situation like this i would be bitchy and say WHAT THE FUK IS GOING ON. BUT in not going to. Mainly because i forsaw this happening. i wasnt completely positive you were going to screw me over till you asked for your dishes the other night. Then came you ignoring me ect. Well im not pissed. maybe its for the best. I think we were better friends when we didnt live together. I know you planned this. Not like all of a sudden the night before you can just come up with 2 people to live with you. But hey Im glad you found someone at least. Like i said before im not mad pissed ect. Gotta find anotehr roomie for a lil bit but thats ok. We will manage. If you still wanna be friends mail or text me some time. If not then dont lol. TTUL BUD well if you choose. now for the funny part here are the texts as follows:
Me: Just got your email what is that supposed to mean?
Him: What u think?
Me: well i dont have anyone moving in with me ive been packing so you have assume things
Him: Not wat we was told.
Me: who you getting your information thru cause i dont know what the hell your talking about
Him: Ur neighbors said u had 2 guys movn in sat night.
Me: Ha thats funny i moved my couch and two chairs upstairs so i guess that means i have a new roomate who visits occasionally from las vegas where he is in the air force and just got back from iraq
Him: Oh. evalyn said u had ppl movn in.
Me: nope but i guess i m now moving in with my parents
Him: Sorry. We askd stinky 2 move in till jan cuz we was told u had roomies
Me: well your loss next time ask me instead of getting false information from someone who has no clue what the hell they are talking about
Him: Yeah def my loss. Wuld rathr it b u. sorry man. makes me feel like an ass now.
Me: that and im not too happy either
Him: Dnt blame u. Im so snrry dude.

This is all word for word no lies i will show you the proof!! :D moral of the story: Dont assume what someone tells u is what really is going on. go to the person and face to face ask them. I dont know where i will go from here with the ex-roomate. We were really good friends, even living together we got along, it was his g/f that would cause our issues. I guess i should not be mad at him since i didnt want to tell him i was actually moving in with my parents over him to save money and to pay off my debts. So in the long run it did work out on my half but im in a pickle, since it wont hurt him not to know i was really moving in with my parents and not him do i ethically tell him or leave it to myself? Either way i still wanna be friends so i think i might just keep that to myself and let him be the dumbass for once since they pretty well screwed me in the long run. Well thats it for now, untill next time....

Moving

So i am moving here in the next few days. I am supposed to be moving in with my current roomate of whom i get along with great. the bad thing is his good for nothing worthless g/f, fiance, ugly bumping friend, or whatever they call there off again on again relationship. She gets pissy for no damn reason, bitches at him then he relays the message on to me. Well our internet got turned off, i dont have all the money in the world right now so that bill was not as important to me to pay cause its not a necessity, yes i m gonna go insane without my online gaming but i will get over it. Well the main issue at hand here is that i get a text message from the ass hat saying you have no idea how BOREING it is with no f*k*ng internet or cable. exact words but no censor (for the young readers). so i respond well u cant complain because you havnt ever payed for any of this bill. he comes back well ive offered blah blah blah bitch bitch moan moan, i laughed him off no big deal. What im coming to realise is that i let him and the bitch move into my duplex with there son knowing they did not have a lot of money and cut them a break. Well they ended up buying a house thru the usda and are moving out this weekend. At first they were like its gonna be just us all is good i start looking for my own place. i find its hard as shit to get the money saved up for a security deposit and first months rent because i m paying out my ass already. so i ask and they agree to let me move in with them to get the money saved up. as it gets closer and closer to move day i keep asking myself do i really want to keep putting up with this? So i called my mom on a whim last night saying i needed to speak with her and my dad about moving back home to get bills paid and money saved and vehicles fixed. she said thats fine so now i wait and keep thinking man do i really want to do this. I mean i dont want to put up with an ass hat of a roomate and the bitch but i dont want to not have a personal life... and since they live in the country that means no highspeed internet for my gaming, ima have withdrawals. so i need some advice i wanna save the money but i wanna have a personal life. what should i do? feel free to speak to me in person or leave a message on here saying HEY DUMBASS DONT BE SO R TARDED AND DO THIS!!! my mind is all over the place right now so i do apologize to those of you i snap at, its nothing personal so please dont take it like it is.....so..untill next time...

...

Another beautiful day out and i have things to say but i dont know how to say them... How do i get the thoughts out of my head if i have no idea how to put them on paper? i have sat here and tried with all my mighty might to get them down but BAM BLOCK NOT HAPPENING! is all i get. Im tired, getting griped at a lot and its wearing on me. Last night at league was a nightmare, i was doing bad so to cheer myself up i was bowilng between my legs and actually doing just as good (for the most part) as trying normally. towards the end one of my team mates got mad because since i was doing bad i felt i should just throw the game and piss on the rest of the team. Funny thing is when i started the league i made it clear, im here to have fun, i dont care my score, i dont care the placing we get, im here to get away, throw a 14-15 lbs. round ball at a tight group of pins trying to knock them down best i could. if i missed whoopdy doo, if i do good AWESOME but im here for the fun. it seems like im not able to have fun without being bitched at. i dont feel im a hard person to get along with, maybe im wrong, i dunno, i guess i will never know. im the type that i dont care what happens, im going to live life to my fullfillness to make ME happy, anymore it seems im trying to make others happy and forgetting about myself. yes i can put on a smile i always do, i dont hold grudges, this is me, if you dont like it theres the door. again i know this is all WAY random and all over the place but thats what this blog is about. so for now im done :D untill next time....

Weekend Update

So I went on a triple date this weekend to the funny bone to see the untamed shrews, boy what a duo that was, i havnt laughed that hard in a long time. We started out going to fuddruckers for supper, that was a good meal, its a different style of restaurant, you order your food, they make it like a fast food restaurant, then u fix it up yourself and eat. Good food, tried a budlight lime for the first time, it wasnt all that great, probably wont happen again lol. After that we headed to the bone to get our tickets so we could try to get good seats. Ended up towards the front pert near on stage which was awesome. So show starts and the Round guy gets up on stage, yeah, cant say i was too impressed by his performance. Then the first shrew came up, Sue Smith, she is a southern lady and god was she hilarious, sadly i cannot post any of her material because of the content, too bad for you. After sue's act came the second shrew, Marge Tackes, wow if i thougth the first one was lewd and hilarious wow was i up for a surprise. she took the stage full force crackin the jokes again that sadly i cannot repeat due to content. Anway after the performance of the duo was over we went back to one of the guy's apartments to bullsheet and show off our guitar skills on rockband (no one was brave/drunk enough to sing) so we just guitared it up. At about two everyone decided it was time to go home... So i spent the next ten minutes letting my bike warm up and hanging with my date. It was a fun time i rather enjoyed it and am looking forward to going back to the bone. Bad thing is that there arnt any good looking acts gonna be there for a while. oh well, patience is a virtue. well i guess this one is long enough for now, and im fresh out of ideas so.. untill next time...

Off the wall...

So here i am sitting at work bored off my ass. I had this really nice rant i was going to type when i got to work but as soon as i stepped inside the door it was like a dumbass brick hit me square in the face. I m tired and just dont want to be here today, i would rather be sleeping at home or just hanging with friends. Sounds like i am going bowling tonight which i look forward to. I love to bowl, i want to improve my shots to help up my score. I LOVE my new ball, its soo nice and has one hell of a hook to it. Im still trying to get complete control over it tho and stop continually guttering the ball. Last tuesday at league i actually started to control it quite nicely, got three good games in. I think if i could afford it i would bowl three games everyday but that can get kinda pricey. I have set a goal for myself, i dont know yet if i want to post this goal or not because i know a lot of people will doubt me. But in due time i may reveal it or if i get hassled enough but as of now...doubtful. I have never really set goals for myself so i m excited to see how this goes. i guess im just to laid back and carefree to care... well i cant think of anything else to speak of so untill next time...

Women.

Why is it that you can be single, have so many gal friends who love to talk/text to you about there problems and then sit there and say oh im so bored. But yet when u say hey let me buy you dinner just as a friend that way you have something to do and the excuses fly? I feel used, this happens more often then not, so my general response is "oh thats fine im used to that response." Then i get the general response back "oh your being stupid shut up!" as in a playful manner... Yes i love being single, but damn, i like to hang out with friends and dont always enjoy it being a sausage fest. No offense guys but comon u have to know where i m coming from. Its just nice to see/hang out with the opposite sex once and a while. Anymore i dont expect to hang out with anyone, i dont invite myself anywhere for the simple reason of hey im sure there will be an excuse made and the "plans" wont happen anyway. Again it happens more often then not and im starting to realise what a "real friend" is over a fake just need someone to gripe at/keep me busy till my "real" friends are there.

Games.

Game - noun, adjective, gam·er, gam·est, verb, gamed, gam·ing. –noun a competitive activity involving skill, chance, or endurance on the part of two or more persons who play according to a set of rules, usually for their own amusement or for that of spectators.


Why is there such a big deal about games? Where I work we are not allowed to play games. That is very well understood. What gets me is they want us to browse other information, well after being on the tech floor for almost 8 months you run out of stuff to browse. So in result i started playing a lil thing called dots, simple click here and play against the AI and get more boxes. Yes under the definition this is a game, what I dont get is that its soo simple and easy but yet we get in trouble for playing. What I understand when no games allowed means no full screen full force online games that take up a lot of space on the computer require certain system requirements, something that has to be downloaded to the pc or require lots of use from the pc itself. Why is something so harmless as in clicking somewhere to make a certain "square" for a point a big deal? Something else I dont get is that one management position says its fine, another no you cant play that. Something needs to be done to come up with a standard that is constanly used for every management position... When this happens I will be happy. Untill then, I guess I just will have to be bored outta my mind and sit here and stare at a blank screen while waiting to do my job.

My First Totally Off the Wall Blog...

Why is it that people are so ignorant these days that they try every trick they can think of to get past the one person trying to help them? Its pretty sad anymore with some of the excuses i hear. Funny part is after i talk to them i get the issue resolved and all i feel like saying is HA YOU IGNORANT FOOL NOW WHAT but do i? no because im not going to drop to there level of education. so yes, you go ahead and be pissy and bitchy with me, i dont care, your not going to get a rise out of me on the phone, my job is to help you to the best of my ability, not transfer you to the first available sup because you dont want to wait.On a side note, we had an excellent night bowling last night, BIG improvement over the last two weeks, everything went smooth as butter. we totally obliterated the other teams score. best part is the last game our least experiance bowler bowled the high game for that round WAY TO GO!! :D and we are all starting to get into sync with each other and have a good time.a good friend once told me he was addicted to video games, at the time i asked myself how is this possible? well i now realise that it is possible and am coming to the realisation that i am to addicted to video games, i find myself at any chance trying to play, when i get bored my first thought is to play video games, this is the only thing that keeps me from being bored. call me what you want but for somereason i am able to sit down and play a game, lose track of time and play for hours on end. My dream job would be to get a job as a video game tester. i dont know why this is but no one else in my family is like this, dont get me wrong i love doing other things i.e. camping, bowling, playing softball, being outdoors, riding my motorcycle EVERYWHERE and many many others but i have the need to play a video game for at least 20 minutes a day. when im at work and bored i look for the non-gamey type games to play, for whatever the reason this is the case. maybe its because im single and not tyed to having to do anything who knows.well i know i could go on and on and on about random things but i have taken enough space and its been a totally at random blog, if i get bored maybe i will go on with another, who knows only time will tell,untill next time....