Bad News for me.

Well my new years started out pretty good, really same shit different day...Untill a few days ago. Come to find out a VERY close family friend of ours may have pancriatic cancer which is terminal and there is no cure for it. The worst part about it, its my father's best friend and almost like second father to me... Now im not looking for sympathy just needing to get this off my chest.. we find out today for sure if he has it or not.. so the last few days have been rocky and depending on the phone call i get this afternoon will determine the next few months of my life...so bear with me please if i m non social, crabby, pissy whatever, im not in my normal state of mind, its just hard to go thru. one plus out of it is i now know how one of my friends feels now since her brother went thru the same thing but with a tumor on his eye, she is about the only friend i can speak with that i know she knows what im going thru and how i feel...so again just be patient with me if you read this and realise im not intentionally being an asshat to you...

Hockey

So I went to my first hockey game last week. Was kind of skeptical of going, thought it would be a boring time. Boy am i glad i went, it was the best time ive had in a while, go sit on bench's, drink beer, and watch guys all decked out in pads skate around hitting a little rubber puck, and beating the hell out of each other! Cant wait to go back this weekend! There was one individual that got on my buddies nerves, his name was Handley, every time someone would come up to slam him against the glass, he would back away and puss out... Well my buddy starts yelling at him right calling him a few different things.. He was louder then the crowd so you know that Handley heard him. Well anyway he is giving Handley shit all night, then finally towards the end of the 3rd period Handley mans up and hits someone. Funny part is after he hit him he looked in our direction and my buddy was looking for his beer and didnt see shit!! PRICLESS! i was laughing pretty good at it. All in all ended up being a good time, cant wait to go this weekend again, well thats all i got for now...so...untill next time...

withdrawals

So here i am folks, been since friday and no caffeine, im so tired i dont know what to do...i thought no caffeine would make me feel a lot better, well so far i feel better but im tired ALL THE TIME! the withdrawals this weekend and past few days have gotten easier to stand, i tried to keep myself busy enough not to think of them....yeah right...its been total hell, the headaches are bad enough i feel my head is splitting, i dont dare take any pain killers cause i already know they wont work. well i was also bad today, i currently have a welch's strawberry pop sitting next to me...oh well better then something loaded with caffeine, and this whole having no energy sucks nuts also, i dont have the energy to go work out properly. it seems this last week i have been a walking zombie. speaking of which, i was talking with a friend of mine and an issue she is having and will always have (very unfortunate) when all of the sudden i knew so much about what was going on and asked her about it, which freaked us both out cause i was telling her things even her bestest and closest friends dont even know...so yeah, thats an issue i dont know how to explain, it was the wierdest feeling in the world and kinda freaked me out...needed to get it off my chest so think what you want, idgas! well i feel a lil better, feel like sleeping still...so untill next time...

whats a new year?

Well with the whole happy new year hubbubaloo let me ask you this...is it normal to have ur parts burn when u pee? On a side note i had an excellent new years eve, i started my new year in an empty hot tub with the top on and a lot of beer next to me. why u ask?? i have no damn clue, i went out to pee and then im in a hot tub. HEHEHE it was nice, all the beer i could drink, not that i did. we had soo much damn beer there we didnt know what the hell to do with it. beer pong used a lot of it, but not enough, now i have a case and nothing to do with it. no where to store it, no where to go and drink it. next best, have a shot gun contest. works for me..now to just find the crew to chase it with me, i need 23 good people to shotgun one beer. hey that sounds like a good craigslist add!! whos with me!! WEEEeeee..... well im dun for now, so...untill next time...