Bad News for me.

Well my new years started out pretty good, really same shit different day...Untill a few days ago. Come to find out a VERY close family friend of ours may have pancriatic cancer which is terminal and there is no cure for it. The worst part about it, its my father's best friend and almost like second father to me... Now im not looking for sympathy just needing to get this off my chest.. we find out today for sure if he has it or not.. so the last few days have been rocky and depending on the phone call i get this afternoon will determine the next few months of my life...so bear with me please if i m non social, crabby, pissy whatever, im not in my normal state of mind, its just hard to go thru. one plus out of it is i now know how one of my friends feels now since her brother went thru the same thing but with a tumor on his eye, she is about the only friend i can speak with that i know she knows what im going thru and how i feel...so again just be patient with me if you read this and realise im not intentionally being an asshat to you...