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Another beautiful day out and i have things to say but i dont know how to say them... How do i get the thoughts out of my head if i have no idea how to put them on paper? i have sat here and tried with all my mighty might to get them down but BAM BLOCK NOT HAPPENING! is all i get. Im tired, getting griped at a lot and its wearing on me. Last night at league was a nightmare, i was doing bad so to cheer myself up i was bowilng between my legs and actually doing just as good (for the most part) as trying normally. towards the end one of my team mates got mad because since i was doing bad i felt i should just throw the game and piss on the rest of the team. Funny thing is when i started the league i made it clear, im here to have fun, i dont care my score, i dont care the placing we get, im here to get away, throw a 14-15 lbs. round ball at a tight group of pins trying to knock them down best i could. if i missed whoopdy doo, if i do good AWESOME but im here for the fun. it seems like im not able to have fun without being bitched at. i dont feel im a hard person to get along with, maybe im wrong, i dunno, i guess i will never know. im the type that i dont care what happens, im going to live life to my fullfillness to make ME happy, anymore it seems im trying to make others happy and forgetting about myself. yes i can put on a smile i always do, i dont hold grudges, this is me, if you dont like it theres the door. again i know this is all WAY random and all over the place but thats what this blog is about. so for now im done :D untill next time....